So. It has been more than a couple months since I began this blog, and since I last posted anything. Honestly I’ve been scared and feeling like I’ve got nothing to write about. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m just depriving myself of doing something that I hope will be helpful to me and hopefully someone else. Anyway, it’s not like anyone reads this blog anyway!!! Haha!
So, in the months that I didn’t post anything, I was finishing my last quarter of my first year of community college. That ended in June. I wasn’t planning on taking summer classes, because I wanted to take advantage of the fact that I don’t have to take them. But, I enrolled for Fall quarter too late, and I wasn’t able to get into an Anatomy and Physiology class that I NEED to take before the winter. So, I’m taking that right now, in the summer quarter. Along with a Spanish class. So, no summer break for me!! It’s nice to just be taking two classes. But it’s still a lot of work, because this quarter is only 8 weeks. So, the classes are pretty intense. A lot of cramming and memorization going on over here.
I want to become a midwife. And I, somewhat, have a plan for how I’m going to get to that point. But, I still need some kind of guidance. Being a Christian I know that it’s not going to be easy for me to find a program here in the PNW that will hold at least some of my values and beliefs! And it has been my goal to contact as many midwives as I can, so I can get their input and guidance. I have started so many emails, texts, and messages to midwives in my area that I can go visit, and yet I haven’t sent not one. Sometimes when I get scared or nervous, or fear that what I want to say will come across the wrong way, I just set it on a shelf and choose not to deal with it. Which is bad. VERY bad. But, I came home from school today (with my nose dripping because of stupid allergies), and decided that I needed some inspiration. So, searched the web for some midwifery blogs. And I came across this one blog post about what it’s like to become a midwife. I found it to be so inspiring despite the fact that the process sounds so terrifying and impossible. It was so humbling to read what she has gone through, and I can’t wait until I’m halfway down the road to becoming a midwife. Her post motivated me to finally press “send” on that email, and to write out this blog post. Here is a link to it: So You Want to be a Midwife? — Midwife in Progress.
So, now I can go study my Anatomy homework, and get ready for the test tomorrow, and I’ll know why I’m going to try my best. First, because I will do it unto the Lord, and second, because midwifery is hard work!!!